The Pursuit of Happyness (2006)
"There is no why in happiness it is i!" Will Smith is trying to make the Chinese baby-caretaker understand he has misspelled happiness into happyness.
To me it is not possible because for him there is no I in anything forget about happiness, but I admit again there is also no "Y" either!
The title of the movie is derived from the words of Thomas Jefferson in the United States Declaration of Independence; which is itself derived from Common Sense by Thomas Paine.
Bits & Pieces
This place if so full of bits and pieces of his memories that I can't take it anymore, need to find myself a job
I still care
Originally when he left, I had only one worry, to SURVIVE! Now, I have another worry, to LIVE! I could survive and even beyond I could live to some extend, but for a person like me who wants to live life to its fullest, this wasn't enough!
It was easier at the beginning, the idea was survival having lost a love! I tried to find replacements and I comforted myself that he does not love me anymore, perhaps he didn't from the very beginning! I kept on reminding myself " I was not enough for him"
when he called first time, it was still easy: "I have no interest in having your number or talking to you" all I needed to say and things went on smoothly, till an email came from a mutual friend telling me that he is not good and he might need me...
Later, the call came, with me shouting, crying and asking to be left alone!However, it had already penetrated through my defence system! Insomnia followed with the idea that he might still have some interest! The walls I had carefully built around my heart simply cracked, I was helpless with fear; what if it becomes known that I was in love with somebody who left me behind, simply because I was not enough for his ambitions!
It hearts, feels like someone is stabbing a knife direct into my heart, it's a sharp, sudden and deep pain that takes up all the energy left in me! I am in a losing battle with the world; don't wanna give up, but have no energy left to keep me going.
It was easier at the beginning, the idea was survival having lost a love! I tried to find replacements and I comforted myself that he does not love me anymore, perhaps he didn't from the very beginning! I kept on reminding myself " I was not enough for him"
when he called first time, it was still easy: "I have no interest in having your number or talking to you" all I needed to say and things went on smoothly, till an email came from a mutual friend telling me that he is not good and he might need me...
Later, the call came, with me shouting, crying and asking to be left alone!However, it had already penetrated through my defence system! Insomnia followed with the idea that he might still have some interest! The walls I had carefully built around my heart simply cracked, I was helpless with fear; what if it becomes known that I was in love with somebody who left me behind, simply because I was not enough for his ambitions!
It hearts, feels like someone is stabbing a knife direct into my heart, it's a sharp, sudden and deep pain that takes up all the energy left in me! I am in a losing battle with the world; don't wanna give up, but have no energy left to keep me going.
Once upon a time, I believed him
الهي به هر كه دوست مي داري بياموز كه عشق از زندگي كردن بهتر است و به هر كه دوست تر مي داري بچشان كه دوست داشتن از عشق برتر
دکتر شریعتی
The big thing
There is a pantry in the corner of our office flat; with a sink, cabinets and water dispenser; no coffee machine of course, but there is a microwave oven. Yesterday I noticed a box with transparent cover over the microwave oven, inside which there was a medium sized brownie cake covered with almond chips on top.I was bewildered; you won’t buy such a big cake in Singapore, could be costly and there is no reason anyway, almost everything comes in small sizes. This morning the cake was resting on the same spot, obviously untouched!
My goodness if this was Iran the cake was history in a matter of minutes! Here is Singapore, it will rest in peace for eternity, and honestly I can’t make it “why”!
People don’t bother to ask who put it there and why?! Everybody is busy making money, building future and improving his career! There is no time for small happiness, you need to save it all for the big one; just work hard, earn more money and save, the big thing is on the way…
My goodness if this was Iran the cake was history in a matter of minutes! Here is Singapore, it will rest in peace for eternity, and honestly I can’t make it “why”!
People don’t bother to ask who put it there and why?! Everybody is busy making money, building future and improving his career! There is no time for small happiness, you need to save it all for the big one; just work hard, earn more money and save, the big thing is on the way…
Empty chair
He is on the other side of the table, they are always on a different side; talking about his problems, as they always do, they never as abut your problems
I am sinking; I do not care about the man on the other side; no more questioning myself about beauty, age, understanding, caring, sensation, manners, sentiments and what so ever, all that matters is that someone feels like sitting on the other side...
I can't take the empty chair anymore
I am sinking; I do not care about the man on the other side; no more questioning myself about beauty, age, understanding, caring, sensation, manners, sentiments and what so ever, all that matters is that someone feels like sitting on the other side...
I can't take the empty chair anymore
Beach Party
My first real New Year Eve in SilosoBeach; Sentosa! For me, 2008 will b a year to be remembered; I let myself go and truly enjoy the evening! I got drunk and I was well taken care of; there are still considerate and sensational men out there, let’s hope they are not all committed
I enjoyed it a lot and I don’t regret it at all! I am not sorry for having been crazy drunk little kid! I am not ashamed of having cried and confessed of being lonely! I feel blessed to have had a fascinating company to maximize the pleasure of the night.
I don't know a bout years to come, but next days to come won’t be as lonely as they used to be...
I enjoyed it a lot and I don’t regret it at all! I am not sorry for having been crazy drunk little kid! I am not ashamed of having cried and confessed of being lonely! I feel blessed to have had a fascinating company to maximize the pleasure of the night.
I don't know a bout years to come, but next days to come won’t be as lonely as they used to be...
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