a play which "has achieved a theoretical impossibility—a play in which nothing happens, that yet keeps audiences glued to their seats. What's more, since the second act is a subtly different reprise of the first, he has written a play in which nothing happens, twice."
-taken from wikipedia
Mercier, V., 'The Uneventful Event' in The Irish Times, 18 February 1956
Natural Born Employee (2)
~When are taking the trip to sub-con premises for next phase of your project?
-I don’t know!
~I’ll be taking my business trip in a month, if you are also there, we can meet.
-Oh, great! If I am there then we can meet up, but I do not know when I am going!
~I heard you are the main contributor and person in change of major activities in this project, even the scope and schedule is determined by you, isn’t it?
-Yes, why?
~Then why is that you do not know the details? Isn’t it you who should plan and organize the entire project?
-Well if I am doing that part as well, what is our VP-operations doing?!
-BTW, I called to get to talk to you anything but job! Could we just forget about this and talk about something else?
~Sure, but when are you going to go!
-Oh, no! Not again!
This is between a friend and me! These lines keep on being repeated at the beginning of each call and I am still resilient enough not to follow up the project with my operational or functional mangers! I definitely would want to expedite the course of project, I would love to take the trip back home and I am quite excited to see my friend as well, but why am I not following up the plan, but he does?
He cares and I don’t! Sad part of the story: he does not care for the business, he cares for his designation, position and future in that business and I do not care for that matter at all! I do not care for the job because it is not that special, I hardly care for the designation because it is not outstanding, and I could not care less for any promotion in here because it will not have any significant impact either on my income or career portfolio! If I do not care for myself in this business, then how could I care for the business itself?
I believe manager or leader does not become one by education or certification; leadership is the way we think, our mindset, our paradigm and the lenses through which we see the world; according to Covey in “7habits” it is the map we are holding in our hand to guide us to our destination. Similarly, management is our behavior, reactions, responses and in a single word: attitude towards any stimuli in life.
I am longing for the next degree, next skill to learn, next multinational to work with, next, next, next …
Why can’t it begin now? What am I going to do in the next that I cannot do now? Unfortunately, I know the miserable answer: the next is going to do something for me! This is the Achilles’ heel; I mean the way of thinking and the mentality of looking for a rescue in some other place rather than engineering my rescue in the same place I am standing. I know the problem but do not know its solution…
-I don’t know!
~I’ll be taking my business trip in a month, if you are also there, we can meet.
-Oh, great! If I am there then we can meet up, but I do not know when I am going!
~I heard you are the main contributor and person in change of major activities in this project, even the scope and schedule is determined by you, isn’t it?
-Yes, why?
~Then why is that you do not know the details? Isn’t it you who should plan and organize the entire project?
-Well if I am doing that part as well, what is our VP-operations doing?!
-BTW, I called to get to talk to you anything but job! Could we just forget about this and talk about something else?
~Sure, but when are you going to go!
-Oh, no! Not again!
This is between a friend and me! These lines keep on being repeated at the beginning of each call and I am still resilient enough not to follow up the project with my operational or functional mangers! I definitely would want to expedite the course of project, I would love to take the trip back home and I am quite excited to see my friend as well, but why am I not following up the plan, but he does?
He cares and I don’t! Sad part of the story: he does not care for the business, he cares for his designation, position and future in that business and I do not care for that matter at all! I do not care for the job because it is not that special, I hardly care for the designation because it is not outstanding, and I could not care less for any promotion in here because it will not have any significant impact either on my income or career portfolio! If I do not care for myself in this business, then how could I care for the business itself?
I believe manager or leader does not become one by education or certification; leadership is the way we think, our mindset, our paradigm and the lenses through which we see the world; according to Covey in “7habits” it is the map we are holding in our hand to guide us to our destination. Similarly, management is our behavior, reactions, responses and in a single word: attitude towards any stimuli in life.
I am longing for the next degree, next skill to learn, next multinational to work with, next, next, next …
Why can’t it begin now? What am I going to do in the next that I cannot do now? Unfortunately, I know the miserable answer: the next is going to do something for me! This is the Achilles’ heel; I mean the way of thinking and the mentality of looking for a rescue in some other place rather than engineering my rescue in the same place I am standing. I know the problem but do not know its solution…
Natural Born Employee
-There are going to be changes in the organization chart soon!
~Really? why?
-It is not working! The structure, the layers and the hierarchy seems not efficient, operation cost is high, overlaps are frustrating and for a small company, it is considered too bureaucratic!
~Are you in favor of changes?
-I do not know what is going to be done, so I have no comment!
~How could you not know what is going on, you are a senior manager!
-Yes! But I requested to be excluded of this exercise, it is not my area, I am a technical manager; though a senior one, but still I am a technical person. I do not understand corporate level strategic plans, and frankly I do not intend to waste my time understanding it
~Ok, in that case, do you trust them for the changes, as you have left it to them to be done!
-What?
~Do you believe in them?
-What kind of question is that in a professional world?
~I just want to know if you believe in the organization top management team to take the best decision to handle the situation?
-Why should I care for that matter? Why should I care if they are right or not? Why should I care whether they make the best decision or not? I am just an employee. If they can take a better decision then I will stay or else I will just leave. It should not be difficult to find another company
This conversation was in between me and a lady who is running her father’s business or in other words a family business, and it hit me like a blow, how much she cared for the real thing and how little I cared for it. I am stuck with codes, circuitry, next innovative design and upcoming NI seminar on ARM design breakthroughs and she is looking at ...
where am I heading?
to be continued...
~Really? why?
-It is not working! The structure, the layers and the hierarchy seems not efficient, operation cost is high, overlaps are frustrating and for a small company, it is considered too bureaucratic!
~Are you in favor of changes?
-I do not know what is going to be done, so I have no comment!
~How could you not know what is going on, you are a senior manager!
-Yes! But I requested to be excluded of this exercise, it is not my area, I am a technical manager; though a senior one, but still I am a technical person. I do not understand corporate level strategic plans, and frankly I do not intend to waste my time understanding it
~Ok, in that case, do you trust them for the changes, as you have left it to them to be done!
-What?
~Do you believe in them?
-What kind of question is that in a professional world?
~I just want to know if you believe in the organization top management team to take the best decision to handle the situation?
-Why should I care for that matter? Why should I care if they are right or not? Why should I care whether they make the best decision or not? I am just an employee. If they can take a better decision then I will stay or else I will just leave. It should not be difficult to find another company
This conversation was in between me and a lady who is running her father’s business or in other words a family business, and it hit me like a blow, how much she cared for the real thing and how little I cared for it. I am stuck with codes, circuitry, next innovative design and upcoming NI seminar on ARM design breakthroughs and she is looking at ...
where am I heading?
to be continued...
Solitude
What is the limit to a person loneliness?
Extremely lonely
Absolutely lonely
Unbelievably lonely
When a glass is deprived of water, it is empty, you can say 10% empty or if you want to be optimist, 90% full. But when a person is deprived of company, can we quantify it? You would say why to quantify a feeling! Well, just to make it more understandable for the other party who is listening! Assume you want to describe how lonely you feel, if you use any of the descriptive adverbs, the whole discussion is subjective, the listener will form a presumption of depth and intensity of your feeling based on his opinion
Anyhow, I feel lonely, I feel as if I am living in a desert where I am shouting, running, escaping and then I find myself in the same place in the same environment as yesterday. I don’t even dare to say lost; what does it mean, to be lost or found in desert? You know. it gets worse at nights where it is cold, dark and too quiet, even to sleep. The sad part of the story is that I do not even envy to get back into a relation; the joy will be the first few days or maybe weeks, after a while, all that remains is expectation, obligation and commitment; at that point I will run gain to my solitude desert.
How I wish to find the place for my peace, out of desert, out of city, out of norms, out of common practices, out of ordinary life style, out of daily routines, out of here. Don’t ask me where, cause I do not know, if I knew I didn’t wait to tell you I would have just gone!
Extremely lonely
Absolutely lonely
Unbelievably lonely
When a glass is deprived of water, it is empty, you can say 10% empty or if you want to be optimist, 90% full. But when a person is deprived of company, can we quantify it? You would say why to quantify a feeling! Well, just to make it more understandable for the other party who is listening! Assume you want to describe how lonely you feel, if you use any of the descriptive adverbs, the whole discussion is subjective, the listener will form a presumption of depth and intensity of your feeling based on his opinion
Anyhow, I feel lonely, I feel as if I am living in a desert where I am shouting, running, escaping and then I find myself in the same place in the same environment as yesterday. I don’t even dare to say lost; what does it mean, to be lost or found in desert? You know. it gets worse at nights where it is cold, dark and too quiet, even to sleep. The sad part of the story is that I do not even envy to get back into a relation; the joy will be the first few days or maybe weeks, after a while, all that remains is expectation, obligation and commitment; at that point I will run gain to my solitude desert.
How I wish to find the place for my peace, out of desert, out of city, out of norms, out of common practices, out of ordinary life style, out of daily routines, out of here. Don’t ask me where, cause I do not know, if I knew I didn’t wait to tell you I would have just gone!
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