Natural Born Employee (2)

~When are taking the trip to sub-con premises for next phase of your project?
-I don’t know!
~I’ll be taking my business trip in a month, if you are also there, we can meet.
-Oh, great! If I am there then we can meet up, but I do not know when I am going!
~I heard you are the main contributor and person in change of major activities in this project, even the scope and schedule is determined by you, isn’t it?
-Yes, why?
~Then why is that you do not know the details? Isn’t it you who should plan and organize the entire project?
-Well if I am doing that part as well, what is our VP-operations doing?!
-BTW, I called to get to talk to you anything but job! Could we just forget about this and talk about something else?
~Sure, but when are you going to go!
-Oh, no! Not again!

This is between a friend and me! These lines keep on being repeated at the beginning of each call and I am still resilient enough not to follow up the project with my operational or functional mangers! I definitely would want to expedite the course of project, I would love to take the trip back home and I am quite excited to see my friend as well, but why am I not following up the plan, but he does?
He cares and I don’t! Sad part of the story: he does not care for the business, he cares for his designation, position and future in that business and I do not care for that matter at all! I do not care for the job because it is not that special, I hardly care for the designation because it is not outstanding, and I could not care less for any promotion in here because it will not have any significant impact either on my income or career portfolio! If I do not care for myself in this business, then how could I care for the business itself?
I believe manager or leader does not become one by education or certification; leadership is the way we think, our mindset, our paradigm and the lenses through which we see the world; according to Covey in “7habits” it is the map we are holding in our hand to guide us to our destination. Similarly, management is our behavior, reactions, responses and in a single word: attitude towards any stimuli in life.
I am longing for the next degree, next skill to learn, next multinational to work with, next, next, next …
Why can’t it begin now? What am I going to do in the next that I cannot do now? Unfortunately, I know the miserable answer: the next is going to do something for me! This is the Achilles’ heel; I mean the way of thinking and the mentality of looking for a rescue in some other place rather than engineering my rescue in the same place I am standing. I know the problem but do not know its solution…