Solitude

What is the limit to a person loneliness?
Extremely lonely
Absolutely lonely
Unbelievably lonely
When a glass is deprived of water, it is empty, you can say 10% empty or if you want to be optimist, 90% full. But when a person is deprived of company, can we quantify it? You would say why to quantify a feeling! Well, just to make it more understandable for the other party who is listening! Assume you want to describe how lonely you feel, if you use any of the descriptive adverbs, the whole discussion is subjective, the listener will form a presumption of depth and intensity of your feeling based on his opinion
Anyhow, I feel lonely, I feel as if I am living in a desert where I am shouting, running, escaping and then I find myself in the same place in the same environment as yesterday. I don’t even dare to say lost; what does it mean, to be lost or found in desert? You know. it gets worse at nights where it is cold, dark and too quiet, even to sleep. The sad part of the story is that I do not even envy to get back into a relation; the joy will be the first few days or maybe weeks, after a while, all that remains is expectation, obligation and commitment; at that point I will run gain to my solitude desert.
How I wish to find the place for my peace, out of desert, out of city, out of norms, out of common practices, out of ordinary life style, out of daily routines, out of here. Don’t ask me where, cause I do not know, if I knew I didn’t wait to tell you I would have just gone!