Homme

@the exit of sports club
-hi
--hi
-how are you doing?
--good, long time no seen!
-oh yes, I lost my mobile and all my contacts
--(you said the same thing last time)
oh! So how are you doing now?
-ok, you look good
--(you said the same thing last time)
thank you
-come, sit down here for a minute
--sure
-so you have been practicing more often
--well, yes, almost everyday
-oh, but what class do you do?
--anything! As long as it is morning and afternoon, I mean before or after office hours, I am not fuzzy about the class type
-oh, then I should teach you breathing techniques, you should do more of breathing! What are you doing this weekend?
--(here comes again, I bet he wants to teach it in his house)
well, I am quite busy these days…
-what time is it? what are you going to have for dinner?
--(oh, no! do not start again, we are through with this)
have not decided yet
-come, let’s go eat
--well, I can have a coffee

@starbucks
-what do you want?
--coffee! latte! what about yourself?
-I have a banana
--(then why the fuck did you invite me out for coffee, you want to sit down and enjoy watching me then at least bother to drink something, or perhaps you do not want to be busy with anything but enjoy)
ok, then I will only have my coffee

@the table
-so how do you meditate
--I just sit down and focus on my breathing and let the rest happen
-then you should follow chest breathing, see here
(gives 5 minutes demo of breathing)
--thank you for the hint, I feel more focused already
-I will teach you some more this weekend
--well, let me see how! I will call you if I am free! I'd better go now
-ok, have a good night

Needless to say the conversation is with a man! un Homme!
I am trying to understand them and and I have made no progress for the last ten years. I am still amazed when I see them sitting in front of me, struggling to find something to say! Anything that might interest me enough to continue sitting at the table! If they are bold enough, then they will try to seduce, or convince me for the night and they open a big credit account backed by their probable luck, outdated bluffs, and none-questionable charm! Since when men have become charming? Anyhow, I have no issue with their sexual drives, but why is it all they have and want! Don't they have any other interests, needs, desires, drives, motives and aspirations in life?

I consider myself a good company, attentive in conversations with a sense of humor, and knowledgeable and open minded for discussions. I seriously engage myself into sports, have a lot of fun things to do over weekend and enjoy my life in different ways. I can bee a good company for almost any kind of pass time activity but drinking! I can make lovely dishes, good coffee and deserts too. I can be sympathetic, understanding, compassionate and inspiriting if needed. Should I say more?
Let me make a bet, out of all those men that wished and wish to catch and keep me, I do not know of a single soul to have noticed any of above. These are my characteristics, these are who I am and so they have evidences written all over me, all someone needs to do is to observe! but they do not have time to observe, they only have one thing in their mind and one interest in me: "the one part of my body that they can hardly see and I also forget most of the time that I have it!
Give me a break and let me go enjoy my life! Empty up yourself some where else, isn't that why prostitution was invented? I am not against men, I am against living life the way hollywood is wishing me to live: physical seduction and materialistic joy.
If you know of any man whom you can ask "why me?" and he is capable of providing a clear reason for having picked you up, please dump him and give me his number!